A WEBSITE DEDICATED TO
STEPHEN W. PAZUR
August 2, 1982 to September 27, 2000
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2 years, Kindergarten, 8th Grade, Junior
'...as my memory rests...
but never forgets
what I lost...
Wake me up when September ends'.
Green Day
Steve is still remembered with this turtle (remember Duncan and Malley?)
on the 7th Sept. 27th since he went away. He was in our mailbox anonymously
today. Thank you so much.
September
When the Sun still shines brightly
If less brilliantly now
Because it’s fallen in the sky
And seen through turning leaves,
That the Autumn winds now rustle
And rest upon the browning grass -
Then that’s the time for me
To again go look for you.
These old boots laced
Six years now I know
I start onto the path
Of three thousand counted steps.
Though more each time than last
Or my pace has slowed a bit
Or my heart just can’t bear
To reach its never end.
Down the gravel road
Through the field and woods
There, it’s always there
Even when I’m not.
I lay upon the ground
Talk to tops of trees
That gathered all around you
When you said goodbye.
But goodbye to whom?
Daddy longlegs on your brow?
Did you whisper to these trees?
Or to the pale blue sky?
And did you linger then?
And do you linger now?
Is there any part of you
That this breeze can bring to earth?
I will wait a little while
As I always do
Then trudge back down the way
Always looking back, and
Visit this holy place again -
I’ll never quit this insane hope.
I’ll probably never touch you, son
But could I touch your soul?
- -
B. Pazur
Poem
Self Portrait
This is me,
regretting nothing
A message from above, and from below
I believe in never
I believe in all the way
I’m only seen swiftly
Only revealed at night
My journey inside the glass walls of time
The end? There is none.
Just comings and goings, seeing nothing
Contorted mind, impossible to understand
Skin to protect my insides
From earthly assailants
You see I am who I know
I am a marauder
A knife thrower
Reliving a handful of the same lives
Forever lost inside myself.
-Steve Pazur
...You are in front of the pond
The one where you were born
Its clear water sparkles at you
It is very bright
So many sparkles
Now you are in your pond
And you are happy.
*
*From the poem The
Dream by Steve, 1999.